40 Days and 40 Nights

So yesterday started this time called Lent. I had not participated in this time because I didn’t think it was anything that my church participated in and I didn’t know exactly what it was. Well yesterday night a popular church for some of the kids on campus held an Ash Wednesday service that explained what this time meant and what it was for. So one of the things I learned is that during this time of Lent you sacrifice something and give if up for 40 days and 40 nights. Some people give up food, candy, facebook, tv, etc. But as I sat through the service I knew immediately that this was something that I wanted to participate in and that I needed to give up something that is near and dear to my heart and that is music. Not all music but secular music. So that means no Gavin, no Jason, no John, no Marc, no Ashford (that’s for you Melissa ;) ). I know you’re reading this thinking how in the world is she going to survive!! I know I thought that too!! But I know that this is something I need to do because I know that I can get music to make me feel a certain way and it can get me in a certain mood even if I don’t want to feel that way. So I feel that this is something I have to do and that this is something God wants me to do. Now for people who chauffeur me around I can’t make you not listen to the music you want to so don’t feel like just because Jeneé’s riding around with me I have to listen to Christian music because that’s not what I’m trying to do. The point is for me to get away from the music I know that puts me in moods that I shouldn’t be in so your music might not be that music. But now if it happens to be any of the people listed above that might be a bad idea :) But my point in all of this is to really just find my purpose in God and to reconnect with Him in away that I haven’t been able to in awhile and I feel like this is going to be a big step in helping me. I’ve never had one non-secular song make me feel sad in anyway, it’s only made me feel and want to be closer to God and that’s what I want. Tonight at the campus ministry I attend one of the songs they sang just put all of this into perspective for me and I hope that you watch this link and just really take out time to really understand what the words mean for you. :) Comments Welcomed!!

Tainted Love...

Happy Valentine's Day to all the happy couples out there!! And shout out to all my single ladies hahahahah..

Anyway on to more important things... Tainted love. What is tainted love you ask? Well I think it's this idea of love that the media, books, music, poetry, etc gives us. Now if you know me I LOVE to read some Nicholas Sparks and boy does he know how to write a good love story, but is that truly going to happen to me. Nope! But it's great to wish and hope that. Then there's music I can't even decide who to choose but you all know who my favs are, but anyway you can't find many artist if any, who hasn't had a song out there about love. So what in the world am I supposed to think about love with a future mate. Are they gonna be able to sing and play piano for me, will I always be the only person they see as theirs? I don't know, I guess it's a risk I have to take but one thing I do know is that I have a love that it everlasting and that is the love of my Savior. So all those other things are just an added bonus and if He blesses me with those things then I will forever be grateful.

For great is His love toward us, and the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever.
Praise the Lord. Psalm 117:2 (NIV)

Friends... Can't live with em'... Can't live without em'...

Tests are over finally…. Can’t change them…. So now on to better things!!!!

This week has been a interesting week, so when I had a chance to talk to people the topic of friendship tended to come up a lot . And in the last few months I’ve just been really tested as far as friendships go. So why not see what everybody else is thinking. So in one conversation with some friends we were talking about how it’s ok to only have a select few of friends that we can really call our close friends. Well this got me to thinking what separates friends vs. close friends? So I came up with some definitions that help me decide. Friends to me are those people who are in your life to make you happy and who are there to just support you in your decisions. A close friend in my definition is all the things that a friends is but more. I would consider this type of friend someone who you can go to during any hard trial in your life and they can offer support (not just supporting what you think but helping you look at all aspects of what’s going on in your life), they would also be someone, no matter what your faults and shortcomings are, their to only help you get passed those faults, etc and look on to the future. I also feel that it’s someone that no matter how awful you feel if something about them is bothering you (that is legit and you have reason and purpose behind the cause), you can go to them and you both try and figure out what the problem is and move past it. [You also need to be willing to accept them if they come to you with a problem too :) ]Also it’s someone you can be honest with and trust. So pretty much someone who’s gonna be their no matter what!! So as you have read this, I challenge you to come up with your own definitions of those two types of friends (because not everybody is going to think like me) but I challenge you to figure out who you can put into to those categories and who you can take out. :) Comments welcomed :)

Here Goes!!!

So for the last week or so i'm sure you've all heard "Is my life interesting enough to have a blog?" Well I've come to a decision. Is my life interesting I'm not so sure about that but thanks to everyone who said it was but is it not interesting I guess you'll have to be the judge of that. But one of my biggest factors in making this decisions was my friend Bella (hope it's ok that I used your name) but I asked her the same question that I asked everybody and I was assuming that since all my other really good friends said "of course your life is interesting" that she would say it to but nope she surprised me she said "uhhh I have no idea. if you think you have something to say you should blog about it." That really got me to thinking it doesn't matter if my life is interesting or not it's just all about what I have to say and if I have something on my mind then why not share it with all my friends. So i'm not going to blog about what i'm eating everyday or just my daily routines, I'm going to blog about my life and it's meaning and how I'm growing up everyday.