Many Thanks...

So my stressful crunch at the end of this semester is over! Now all I gotta do is wait for exams! So the other night in the middle of all my stressful days, I got to thinking about the end (the end of the semester that is) and everyone going their separate ways. It seemed like just yesterday that everyone was moving in and trying to get together and spend time with one another but now it's starting to dwindle down because the end is indeed approaching. I was thinking the other night how I felt about this and I'm ok. That's what happens. It's that time of year where everybody has so much going on and thinking about so many other things that they don't have time to think about everyone as a whole. Everyone is growing up and we're all at different stages in our lives. So I'm ok to leave everyone behind and learn something exciting and new this summer, because when I get back in the fall everything exciting and new that they've learned they'll be telling me all about it (Grace via Skype, phone!!!) and I'll get to them all that I've learned too! Also this year I've learned alot that I didn't know about my friends and myself and man it's definitely made me stronger and made me realize that I need to reevaluate my life and priorities. It's been a roller coaster ride for sure this year but it wouldn't have been filled with ups without the help of the great friends that surround me all the time. So thanks to the wonderful girls of 420 and everyone else you know who you are ( ;) KT, Stephanie, Amanda, Michelle, Liz,...) who has made a difference in my life this year at school. I will forever be grateful!

Thank You!
I really appreciate you,
Your helpful, giving ways,
And how your generous heart
Your unselfishness displays.
I thank you for your kindness,
I will not soon forget;
You’re one of the nicest people
I have ever met.
By Joanna Fuchs

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Gravity

So as most of you know I gave up secular music for lent and it was a long 46 days. There were days that I thought I was definitely going to retreat back to my secular music because that was my escape. Just ask my roomie, who also gave up something for lent and knew kinda what I was going through, about the countless times I texted, called, whatever and said "I CAN'T DO IT!!! I just have to listen to this one song!!!" but sweet Melissa always said "Nope!!! You can do it!!! We only have x amount of weeks, days left!!! You don't have to listen!!!" So I didn't and I made it all the way through. So on April 4th at 1 a.m hahaha I listened to my first secular song in 46 days. I decided that I wanted it to be a surprise so after putting back all the music I had taken off my iPod I just hit shuffle and what played was John Mayer's War of My Life. Now when that played I was like what is that supposed to mean? But I think as this week began I saw what it was supposed to mean. So like I said earlier I tend to retreat to music as my escape. So when things are bad or if I just don't want to deal, I go to my music. Well Monday was not a good day for me! And it happened to be my first real day back with my music. And what did I do? Yep I let the music take me in. I went back to a place that I haven't been in 46 days! And I was mad at myself! That was my whole purpose of letting the music go and the only reason I allowed myself to put the music all back is because I thought I could handle it and I failed miserably. (Can you see the "War" taking place) Well I refused to have another day like Monday so on Tuesday I refused to have a bad day. So I didn't! I had the greatest day I've probably had my whole sophomore year and I can't wait to have more like them. So now you see why I was very apprehensive when that John Mayer song played. And yes maybe I am having a war in my life but the happy me is gonna win! But other than that listening to music has been great. On that first Sunday of my freedom I was able to ride back to school with my friend Ella and she and my friend Grace are really great about informing me about great, new music and keeping me current on music. I love riding back and forth to school with them because I feel like I've discovered so much more about music that I didn't know about. But this past Sunday since I've been away from the music scene for so long, Ella was trying to catch me up on the cool new hits that everybody's listening to on the radio these days. So we're just cruising down the highway, windows down and one song in particular really gets my attention. Well I ask Ella who sings it and she says The Script and I of course forget! Well when I get back to campus I'm sitting on my bed and I know that I have to remember that song and the only thing I remember is Falling to Pieces. So I google it! And of course The Script comes up and I remember what Ella had told me and I'm just so happy and I immediately go download the song (which is called Breakeven watch here) and haven't stopped listening to it since. I'm absolutely in love with this band. Their sound, the music, everything! It actually reminds me of how I felt about Gavin DeGraw, whose songs I haven't listened to any the whole way through yet (interesting, I know but I haven't quite figured that out yet)! But anyway I love music obviously and it was tough going that long without alot of the music I love and i'm glad to have it back but I also have to be careful and not let it get to me like it has in the past.



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You Need a Friend, Wonder Who'll Be Around?

"I'll Be There" - Jackson 5 (I'll Be There)
"You Need a Friend I'll Be Around"  -Gavin DeGraw (More Than Anyone) 

So over these past few weeks I've once again been tested with some friend stuff. So if you noticed the song lyrics up above (random I know) then you might know where I'm going with this. So the Jackson 5 song I just randomly heard at my friend Kathryn's house and then of course I gotta use Gavin, I was gonna use him first anyway, but I think they both really pertain to what I wanna talk about and that's friends and which friends are gonna be there for you in the end. I've learned in the last few weeks that people/friends change and continue growing with or without you and you have to be ready to accept that change even if you weren't expecting it. I've also learned that people/friends that you thought you knew aren't exactly who you thought they were and maybe aren't someone that you can be friends with anymore. Last thing I learned (I know!!! I learned alot in these past few weeks!!!) was that everybody has somebody that they can depend on, maybe me or whoever in their case  but I haven't exactly gotten their yet. I'm still working on letting myself let others help me but i'm trying. I'm also working on telling myself that there may not be one person on earth that I can depend on who is going to be there all the time when I need them (boy has that failed multiple times) but I do know that God is going to be there for me regardless the circumstance. So I guess i've learned some very hard lessons that have dug deep in the heart these past few weeks but they have only made me stronger and hopefully wiser!! And the biggest lesson I learned through all of this is that everybody is getting older and growing up in ways my brain can't even imagine and I guess I will have to continue to keep being encouraging and just allow them to grow the way God is wanting them to grow. And hope they allow me to grow as well. So with all this said it really got me to thinking about my friends. I hear that the college years are when you make your friends for life. So what do you do when friends from the past have changed, or when you don't see friends that you met freshman year anymore, or what about those friends who have just moved on and have other friends that they depend on? Who's going to be be there when YOU need a friend?

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