"752"

Well if you don't know anything about me then you need to learn fast that I love me some TV and I love me some Scandal. One of my favorite episodes I recently got to re-watch thanks to BET and these Saturday marathons they have been running. The episode is called "752". There are a million reasons why I love the episode but in particular the raw emotion and honest that is emmited just blows my mind.

The power of raw emotion and honesty. True honesty. Raw emotion. Does anyone even know how to be truly honest and show emotion? In our society, I think it's been taught to us the importance of getting ahead, being strong-- pushing whoever we need to to get what we want. We pretend we don't have time for this or that but instead remain lonely. This episode of Scandal reminded me of that. We can look like we have it all together yet still be so lonely. Why is that? I think it's because we think that everybody has it together. On the outside we all look put together but on the inside we are one jumbled up mess. So instead of our "friends" saying it'll get better, I'll pray for you, I understand. It would be better if they were saying I screwed up too but I am still pushing through and know that it'll get better. No one cares just about all the clean parts of your life. The clean parts are only half the story. We need to hear the messy. We need to know that you still struggle. And not just past struggles. But what happens now. In the present? As an adult? Today?  Lies and half truths can't be the building blocks of friendships and community. Only through God, truth, love, acceptance, forgiveness, and time can true community florish. Are you willing to set your dirt on the table with everyone else's? Whose willing to make the first move? 

All Of Me

What's it like for someone to know you inside out? Right down to your best hair days or to the way you snore in your sleep. Knowing someone is not limited to these little things by any means but what really qualifies as knowing someone? I wish I knew.

I don't think anyone really knows who I am yet. I feel as though I am even trying to figure that out myself. Letting someone in, letting someone get to know the good, bad, and ugly parts of you seems like a scary yet beautiful part of life.

I fell in love with this John Legend song "All of Me" after it was featured on an episode of Grey's Anatomy. John Legend I believe is writing to his fiancé about their relationship and how they both know one another inside out so he is giving himself all to her. He talks about them giving their imperfections to one another, how they both are a little crazy and that's ok because he is ready to give all of himself to her! It's a beautiful song that I find myself drawn too for a lot of reasons. Reasons that I don't even think I know or even ready to admit. If you're in the mood for a feel good love song please give it a listen you won't be disappointed.

Privacy

I never knew how much I valued my privacy until recently. I was in a situation recently where I didn't  have any privacy. I mean none! Maybe an hour here or there but that's it. Somedays there wasn't a second of privacy. Being an introvert,  I sometimes crave and need alone time so this situation I was in was one of the toughest. I usually take my alone times to just be and to clear my head of the day. Unfortunately that was not the case. I definitely realize how much I value my privacy and just my time alone. I will not take it for granted anymore.