My best friend had a blog that she called
Conversations between B and Interwebs and I loved it because she wrote about the random things going on in her life and it was literally like a conversation. So to pay homage to her and to get some things out of my brain, I'm going to have a conversation with you today.
My life has been a whirlwind this past month. But I will say that I have learned more about myself in the past month than I have in awhile. All because of dating. I know right? Jenee went out on a date. A couple of dates in fact. I hit it off with this guy and we were hanging out for a little while and I can honestly say it was the most fun month of my life. For someone like me who spends a lot of time carrying other people's burdens or the weight of the world on her shoulders. To say that I had fun is a HUGE statement. But I did. And I can honestly say I miss it. I don't necessarily miss the boy I was hanging out with. I miss the person I was. I was normal. I was carefree. I wasn't the "dump truck" that I sometimes feel like I am. I took care of myself. I miss that. So this past week has been really hard. It's like I've forgotten how to take care of myself. I'm back into old patterns. The carefree Jenee and the normal Jenee are gone. Strange right? I know. I'm still grappling with it as well. Why does hanging out with a guy make me feel so carefree and normal. Probably because it's something I never expected to be comfortable with. And I am. Weird.