Gravity

So as most of you know I gave up secular music for lent and it was a long 46 days. There were days that I thought I was definitely going to retreat back to my secular music because that was my escape. Just ask my roomie, who also gave up something for lent and knew kinda what I was going through, about the countless times I texted, called, whatever and said "I CAN'T DO IT!!! I just have to listen to this one song!!!" but sweet Melissa always said "Nope!!! You can do it!!! We only have x amount of weeks, days left!!! You don't have to listen!!!" So I didn't and I made it all the way through. So on April 4th at 1 a.m hahaha I listened to my first secular song in 46 days. I decided that I wanted it to be a surprise so after putting back all the music I had taken off my iPod I just hit shuffle and what played was John Mayer's War of My Life. Now when that played I was like what is that supposed to mean? But I think as this week began I saw what it was supposed to mean. So like I said earlier I tend to retreat to music as my escape. So when things are bad or if I just don't want to deal, I go to my music. Well Monday was not a good day for me! And it happened to be my first real day back with my music. And what did I do? Yep I let the music take me in. I went back to a place that I haven't been in 46 days! And I was mad at myself! That was my whole purpose of letting the music go and the only reason I allowed myself to put the music all back is because I thought I could handle it and I failed miserably. (Can you see the "War" taking place) Well I refused to have another day like Monday so on Tuesday I refused to have a bad day. So I didn't! I had the greatest day I've probably had my whole sophomore year and I can't wait to have more like them. So now you see why I was very apprehensive when that John Mayer song played. And yes maybe I am having a war in my life but the happy me is gonna win! But other than that listening to music has been great. On that first Sunday of my freedom I was able to ride back to school with my friend Ella and she and my friend Grace are really great about informing me about great, new music and keeping me current on music. I love riding back and forth to school with them because I feel like I've discovered so much more about music that I didn't know about. But this past Sunday since I've been away from the music scene for so long, Ella was trying to catch me up on the cool new hits that everybody's listening to on the radio these days. So we're just cruising down the highway, windows down and one song in particular really gets my attention. Well I ask Ella who sings it and she says The Script and I of course forget! Well when I get back to campus I'm sitting on my bed and I know that I have to remember that song and the only thing I remember is Falling to Pieces. So I google it! And of course The Script comes up and I remember what Ella had told me and I'm just so happy and I immediately go download the song (which is called Breakeven watch here) and haven't stopped listening to it since. I'm absolutely in love with this band. Their sound, the music, everything! It actually reminds me of how I felt about Gavin DeGraw, whose songs I haven't listened to any the whole way through yet (interesting, I know but I haven't quite figured that out yet)! But anyway I love music obviously and it was tough going that long without alot of the music I love and i'm glad to have it back but I also have to be careful and not let it get to me like it has in the past.



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