They say that home is where the heart is but what home exactly? Is it the home you grew up in, the home(s) your parents live in, the home you'll take your children to visit during the holidays, or even the home you live in now? What home? If I had a chance to ask the person who came up with that saying I would ask them cause I wanna know. Being a college student I have two homes, one at school and one back with my mom. As the years have gone by and I get older I really see that my life between the two places are completely different and have changed in a big way.
I've come to see that I really don't fit in completely here in my moms town. Just like if she came to my school she wouldn't know how to fit in completely there. I think I figured out why that is and I'm sure most of you have too. Time moves on! Even when we aren't there. We grow up. Our parents, siblings, old friends, etc. grow up and move on as well too. So the struggle to fit in when you visit old places is normal. Some of us will make it work and find a way to fit. Others of us will just accept the inevitable and not fight the distance we know is to come. So I think the reason you can't seem to find where you left that old heart of yours is because you took it with you and it's at your new residence guarding the old memories from your old home as well as savoring the new memories from your new home. Don't worry you'll get back to it soon enough.
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I love you so much Jenee'. This is too true, I often battle with losing touch with friends from home, and also how to act when I go back for visits. Raleigh is such a different world from where I grew up even though it is in the same state. I can't wait to room together with you next year...I promise it will be a better experience than being suitemates freshman year! Nothing crazy, except me of course! :)
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