Joy

Lately it's hard for me to find the joy in anything. I kind of just expect the worst in all situations, people, etc. I laugh through all my struggles even though I'm on the verge of a breakdown on the inside. A couple of weeks ago I told someone I wouldn't even know what happiness feels like because I never really look forward to it. So my prayers these days are that God would please restore my joy again because joy is a precious thing to have. David in Psalm 51 had it right. And I completely love this passage and it's where I am these days.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.

-Psalm 51:12